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11월 20일 文字游戏叹人间,美中不足今方信,纵使举案齐眉,到底意难平。
我们是一场文字游戏。你出题,我回应,拼凑我们不曾有过的同一种回忆。 你在犹豫,我很清醒。我干杯,你随意,幻想缩短我们无法跨越的距离。
断断续续,一切都在继续,你听你的歌,我看我的戏,没有太多联系。 分分离离,你往东我往西...... 11월 18일 信仰To believe is to be believed6层....11层....这是我生活的高度,
16.6千米,这是我生活的距离,
18小时,这是我生活的时间,
所以我的空间,是2.69m²/s。
有人说恋爱是绩效最低的任务,
有人讲结婚是长线地投资,
有人告诉我灵魂的重量是21克,
人的生命的宽度是9厘米。
可以温暖一个人的只有另一个人的体温,
可以改变一种生活的只有另一种生活。 6월 19일 It is the first and it is the last.Finally back to London....from the first trip to Paris in early April until the last one to Belgium, I went through 16 countries in this three months' time. I thought it was one way through different cities without coming back to any of them. However, it turns out to be circle routes and one within the other.
I said I would like to be fully independent in this process after being shepherded for over 24 years. Although I move a lot in the past but no matter where I went, there was always someone there for me. I do not need to worry about whether there is a place to stay, how can I earn enough money to support myself or even more simple things-how can I wake up in the morning....someone will handle it and remind me....it works in this way for many years. No need to worry about anything at all but my fear never disappears as I know I can do nothing on my own. I would like to learn something new in this trip but I did not know how to make it at that moment. Actually, I started the last one with a group of people and a reliable travel agency as there was no enough time for me to organize everything by myself. Still, enough budget, good insurance policy and three copies of the documents in all my different packages, nothing to be worried about. I might be coming back with the same me....
Then it happens....I was rejected at the Albania border as I ignored that this one is not in Schengen agreement. What I need to do at that moment was walk back to Greece and took all the way back to Italy on my own. When I got off the bus, unconscious for 2 minutes, then I thought I couldn't delay the schedule of the whole group and I must leave them. After that I started to walk back....no time for anxious, no time for crying and no time for any other things. When I arrived at the Greece border, I was wondering what kind of stamps they would give me-by plane you get a plane, by train you get a train and by Ferry you get a Ferry, what about on foot? The other interested thing is although the Greek alphabet is different from English, the logic behind is almost the same. So you have same composition of the words and it is possible to identify the name of the place. By this way I finally on board my ferry to Italy-one of the most luxury ferries with swimming pool on the deck and the four persons’ cabin only for me.
I am on my own, there is no plan and there is no back up plan....Last ferry, last train and last bus....and I make it. This must be the most impressive part in my trip and there are many other funny things come later.
5월 12일 For something deep insideJoanne is leaving, Sonia is leaving and Cheri will leave......Then our 74 Gower Street will become the home in our heart.
This year means too much to me and I cannot stop flashing all the senses time and time again, nor can I sleep well recently.
I choose to leave first to hide myself from saying goodbye......
4월 15일 When you make a wishWe sometimes pay much attention to the gift but ignore the one who gives...... 11월 25일 Have you ever seen a dog on the roof?Today I came back later than usual. When I got out the office, I saw a very lovely small dog on our open stairs. Then I went back and got him a piece of ham.
He is very cute and not shy. When I got closed enough, I tried to touch his head but it seems he doesn't like it. He climb up the stairs and quickly went onto the roof.
I was amazed by his movement and just wondered about how a dog could make it-like a cat...and I soon realized that he is Mr Fox who also came across weeks ago.
Strange things always happens, as I finally found someone who can talk over 2hours without stop....like me...
11월 18일 无望之灾......刚说静下心来好好读一本深奥点的书,结果选来选去选了The world of Peter Rabbit..... 刚说早点出门可以在清早好好说下班回家路上小心,每天飞奔到车站还是赶上同一班车...... 刚说努力工作,一同事发现了怎么把照片Ps成3D的,然后一有空就戴上红绿眼镜跟那Pho,后面站着主管都没发现..... 刚说回家绝对不碰电脑,又猎到一部经典漫画,Master Keaton,十好几卷,奋斗了一周都没到一半...... 刚说绝不晚于10点回家,亲爱的蝎子们的生日聚会接踵而来...... 刚说重新做人立志减肥一把,Haagen-Dazs年度special offer又开始了...... 11월 11일 损友是福混乱了两个月,用工作来填满所有想一些有的没的的时间,把能去的地方都想了一遍,发现还是别挪窝了,办这个办那个,麻烦....可是终于还是要被敲打的,同类就是同类,时差没有关系,距离不是问题,躺着说话装腰疼,一针见血,两句要命啊,本来想拽根稻草就算了,拉着一白眼狼尾巴,哎,今年冬天不咋冷,而我又基本解决了温饱,真浪费了。911以后,精算师会带仿制炸弹上飞机,因为这将降低遇上真炸弹的几率....主动找损,就减少了被损的机会....昏昏沉沉的,内容都忘差不多了,但是您的音容笑貌将永远留在我的心中....
看这些年里,您处变不惊,高瞻远瞩的可持续长肉计划已近步入正轨,Herzlichen Glückwunsch! 其实我不是094,也没打算把QQ当草坪....只是被糖衣IC-4UGM-96A打晕啦,一时半会没回过神来,与您身体力行地为着稳定CPI而奋斗之精神相去甚远,深表惭愧。您AR15一般的精准敏锐和SAS一般的雷厉风行,让我辈饰知以惊愚,修身以明污,昭昭乎若揭日月而行也。真没发现其他GM这么成功的案例,至此此生又少一桩憾事。今得一字之点,诚惶诚恐,杨雀衔环,报之甚微。遥想当年S型的挂衣钩已经出落成了B型的豪华真皮沙发,我反而只从B看到了S,捶胸顿足,叹鼠目之寸光愣是把您全拍在阴影里了,连点反光都没瞅着。
玩笑开够,虽然受了点刺激,但是谢谢你让我明白,我留下来的意义,是要证明回家,不是因为输了这场竞争,是真的因为家人和定义为家人的人。 11월 8일 Unpredictable...You can predict the risk, but you can never predict the uncertainty...
Last week there was an open lecture in LSE given by Professor Niall Ferguson, who is famous for his outside academia for his views on imperialism and colonialism within academia. He states that money is the human relationship, which based on the trust from fair trades.
And then I thought that when we do risk analysis with stastics and advanced mathematic model, we are able to figure out all the possibilities precisely, though which the past may explain the future. However, the past can never present the future with uncertainties, which is the most frighten things for us human beings.
I always worried about the uncetainties as well, even if it brings me so many opportunities and benefits. Then if it is something unpredictable, just let it go... 其实......今天又在地图上趴了一天,下班一路沿河逛回来,突然发现这座号称孤独而忧郁的城,其实晚上真蛮热闹的....其实一切还是往好的方向在发展的,从二区搬到了一区,从小宿舍搬进了姐们温暖无比的家里,从无所是事到做着还算自在的工作,从冷冷清清的宅人生活到每周都有一两次聚会,从每天自己煮饭到回家就有现成的美味....我和小哥们姐们一起,重新一起长大,什么都会越来越好的。
今天会那么开心,还有一个原因就是文结束了曼城的工作,无比惊喜地出现在家里,‘东方女人西方画’,要是和樱超级无敌的拍卖技巧能结合起来,我以后就跟着打杂,这辈子就交待了。呵呵,还有就是损友自远方来,不亦乐乎...LSE精算高材大美女驾到,在传说中的经济危机中坚持挤进投资银行,这种精神非常值得我这种得过且过的人好好学习,不过还是得委屈委屈,充气床垫伺候...
后天是岚的生日,老传统,中国城K歌去,啊哈哈~~~~楼上楼下的,毕业才知道我们专业居然名字是差不多的,但是学的东西完全不同....哎....看来DPU真是异类啊....完美的天蝎座死党们生日快乐~~~~特别是章鱼~~~~还有我唯一的表妹~~~~远在大洋那一边,我从来没有机会好好了解的欣。
朋友是一生一世,互相扶持。我最骄傲的事情,就是无论在什么时候,什么地方,除了家人,都把朋友放在了第一位。说了那么多次再见,就是真的希望在能有机会的时候都能见到。从小到大,多少聚多少散,多年之后,谈笑如初,至信如故。我不喜欢学校,喜欢跟老师做对,话多,胡闹,还好有人一直陪着我....
我们十四岁那年同桌,一起逃课上网...不能忘...
我们十七岁那年开始住在同一个宿舍,夜夜长谈,不能忘...
我们二十二岁那年来到这个陌生的国度,相互扶持,不能忘...
至于那深陷在两个人的孤独里的脆弱情感,有了没了,又能有多难过呢?只是一直忘不了一句话,也一直这样提醒自己,‘泉涸,鱼相与处于陆,相呴以湿,相濡以沫,不如相忘于江湖。与其誉尧而非桀也,不如两忘而化其道'....其实剑侠情缘蛮好玩的.... 10월 31일 Spider,GIS, VGA......in processing......Working is a busy, crazy but lazy process...everyday I deal with the shinning Seattle and hot Sao Paulo...in bloody cold snowing London.
When you just 'climb up' every city with the mouse and powerful CPU, then something special may come to your eyes but at the same time, you will get lost and cannot sense their gorgeous.
Cheri, please come back to me as soon as possible, although your bacterias and me are all well, our Phalaenopsis and I really miss your so much.
10월 26일 Painted skin因为夏令时过去多了一个小时,可以舒舒坦坦地看个电影。今天的天气啊阴沉沉的,电脑里面只有一部画皮......不知道是偶然还是必然。
看着看着,跳一跳,再看看,再跳跳....突然终于找到闪光点,来回看了好几遍,原来的王夫人(这个称谓比较说明问题),终于头发也白了,说话的力气也没有了,才等到那个鬼迷心窍的男人啊说了句人话,“不管你做了什么,我们一起承担”.直到最后只剩一个躯壳的时候,才发现那么深的爱着,何必呢?不过还没好一会,雷人的就来了,“如果你爱我,把佩蓉还给我,佩蓉死了,我和她一起死;要是佩蓉回来你告诉她,我不是个好丈夫,我没有好好保护她……我爱你,可我已经有佩蓉了……”我那个混乱啊,那个不知所以啊,莫名其妙啊,男人们的感情真丰富啊真丰富, 女人们的伤心是真活该啊真活该.......越是做错了的人,越是无辜,反而让被伤害的人看起来张牙舞爪.......难得一个有关小三儿、婚外情和跨物种之间的爱情能有一个圆满的结局.......这个评论,实在是太强了.......要是真的相爱,别计较,让他去爱他爱的人,不要挤到别人的地盘上去自取其辱,有那么难么,要是真那么难,就别想了。
最后就想到那张皮,我曾经白痴地以为,邋遢点没什么,只要还算善良,只要聪明好强有自己的主张,真心实意,其他都没有什么关系。但是现在看来,还是不行的,看看人家夫妻多年,还不是一张皮就给哄走了。看来别说是没结婚,结了婚,也不能松懈啊。虽然还是会有爱情在,虽然遇到什么事情还是可以一起解决,但是,也不能倒这种霉啊。什么嘛,留长发,戒零食,做保养,我还就不信了.......
10월 25일 LibraIt all happens, and it will all happen again...just enjoy a life which is adventurous (*Hebrews 11.8b), mysterious (Colossians 3.4), and glorious (2Corinthians 3.18b).
'Therefore do not be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself'. 10월 8일 致Anna没有想到还有一个人,在这一年里,和我过着那么相似的生活. 而且她的名字叫做Anna.
意外地生活在这么近的地方,意外地现在才发现.
以前曾经用过Angela这个名字,意思是牵着上帝的手来到世间的幸运儿,然后缩写就是Ana, 是一个从A开始,又从A结束的名字,优越而圆满.
其实那个时候就已经很好了,有家,有宠爱,有依赖。
后来朋友说你应该又一个更特别,属于你的名字,然后变成了现在这个,从R开始,从R结束, 坚持并重新来过.
我意外地留了下来,意外地失去了Ana的意义,也许从我去年收拾好行李的那一天就注定,这就是我拥有的全部.
其实世界那么小,只是一张机票就可以把周围一切都改变。
其实愿望那么简单,只是想有人盼着我回家......
Anna, 谢谢你意外地发现了我,让我意外地想起了这些事情。
10월 4일 原点一个人,新家,新工作,新方向.......
朋友说,你还没能停下来,是因为你的目标比别人远......
朋友说,你还需要努力,是因为你的收获比别人大......
朋友说,你还不能依赖,是因为你的自由比别人多.......
朋友说,你还要继续流浪,因为你的旅途比别人精彩......
可是我了解的是,
不要因为有一次侥幸,就肯定每一次都有这么好运......
不要因为意外的收获,就心安理得,因为还会意外地失去......
不要因为一起经历了太多考验,就肯定感情不会败给时间......
不要因为离开了家太长时间,就觉得回去的时候一定要变成不一样的人...... 9월 28일 简单生活如果我还在北京, 我就不会有时间陪小孩子玩.也不会因为突然很想吃蟹壳黄,自己想起来做.
虽然是周末,感觉累累的,但是,很开心.小孩子的世界那么简单,那么容易快乐,只要跑跑跳跳就好,不会喜欢敞篷的跑车,不会想要环游世界,不会评价房子的大小和地段,不会在任何人面前有任何的拘束和做作.他们那么容易就会把最喜欢的玩具放在你手上,然后忘记;他们那么相信你,只要你说你会接住他,多高的地方都会往上爬;他们非常需要你,玩什么都想和你一起......
9월 26일 Happy birthday....
So many things happen in these three months and it is too much for me. Now I see clearly how much we can really depend on ourselves.Happiness and soreness always go together and we can not really tell what is really a blessing or swear.I would rather say it is a sweet painful journey which will enrich our live and nourish our spirit. However, again,I went back alone. I'm not worried about this because Frances, Cheri and Joa take so much care of me and always be here for me, but I still feel confused as there is too many options and I cannot make my choice. I have tried so many times to attach my life to someone's else as I know I will be isolated from this world if nobody are not really know me. I am a little tired and my belief is coming to broke down. However, the old track can't get me back to the sunny beach when the moonlight and campfire illuminated the smiling faces. Although the sweet pictures are still in my heart, I know our understandings become further apart and I'll go forward alone to our trip of exploring the world. With this hand I will lift your sorrows...Your cup will never be empty, for I will be your wine...With this candle, I will light your way into darkness...and with my promise, I'll set you free... These are the words I am preparing for you and waiting for.
6월 26일 心的完结篇犬夜叉终于完结了,可能还会出番外篇吧,毕竟好多人,好多事情都还没有交待清楚.虽然感觉有草草收场的味道,但是毕竟是我最喜欢的大团圆结局,还是很满足.
还是只会欣赏童话,期待着每一个故事里的人都能从此幸福地生活在一起 ......然后想想自己,会有什么样的结局呢,三个月时间,要决定的事情太多,有些手足无措。当一个长长的问号要休止在一个句号的那一刹那,感觉是相当的诡异啊。有些累,不知道还要做多少努力才能真正变成想象中那个样子,但是想想现在已经有的这一切,那么真实地在眼前,又觉得很安心.
回家的路其实很短,短到只要转身一推门,就在家里了.可是这条路又很长,长到哪怕每一分一秒,都有特别的停顿.很期待接下来的这三个月时间,然后更期待这三月之后的那个生活.然后,尽心尽意地在这三个月里,做最完美的努力. 6월 18일 一边,另一边一边,另一边,我究竟是什么样子的人。
一边鼓吹传统妇女的优良品质,一边乐此不疲地在哥们姐们面前展现英勇无敌的野蛮气势。
一边高喊减肥口号,一边每天琢磨好吃的食物的做法并不断尝试。
一边讨厌无聊地学术气氛,一边死赖在学校不走。
一边立志刻苦学习,一边每天睡到自然醒,然后聊聊天看看电影。
一边憧憬着成双入对的幸福生活,一边坚持不懈地喜欢着一个远在天边的人。
一边认识了梦想中的气质美女,一边丢掉了我的Student Oyster Card, 看来我的学生生涯是真的快结束了。 |
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