"First they ignore you; then they laugh at you; then they fight you; then you win.” Gandhi

Tomorrow will be my third meeting in Camden Town Hall.......Everytime I keep on questioning and making suggestion which makes me very embarrassing sometimes, especially when I cannot pick up  the right  words to describe what I want to say. However, it is a nice experience which always makes me feel I am part of the place where I live.It sounds rediculous that I need this kind of evident to prove I am living here,but if there is no such  evident, where do I belong to then? I was born in a city where was far away from my hometown, I once lived in a city where was far away from my other family members and I studied in a city far away from my home as well. My life is along with my mother's but now she is far away from me as well. Far far away, is not something so easy to tell.

I always fight for my identity in every city I lived, from south to North, from east to west, from one journey to the next. How can I know my country so well? Because I have been to so many different cities here. I still remember my tutor said to me, the contradict side of exclusion is not inclusion, it is participation. So try to take charge of the things around you but not wait for anybody to provide is the only way for you to achieve anything. UCL means what? Means inteligience and character, which are the true goals of education.

     My life seems always have relationship with airport. I can't remember the feeling when I first time took plane home as it was over 20 years ago but I'm still quite sure that that journey  has defined my life. Every significant change has taken place here, every new beginning starts from here and if I could have my most sorrowful time, it alsways stays here as well. Although so many times hurt myself, a broken wing still strong enough to cross the ocean and  never care about how far should I go to catch the dream.

     Whenever I go to the airport, it is always for my best loved ones. Whenever I back from the airport, it is always for my best loved ones.  My tears never fall off my face but my heart has already lost her way. No one could stop me as I have never tried to persuade anyone stay for me. Maybe it is cruel, just as the way we live and die. We make the choices and live with them, finally,we become those choices.

     My promise kept itself at airport and wait for me to come back, and I'm sure I will. No matter how fantastic it is in the journey, there is always a home for me to come back. That is the oath inscribe on the watching tower, no matter how long will it take for me to finish the adventure, that is always the one celebrating my achievement. Leaving itself, is an achievement.

     For  Frances came back from France.

  一段时间过去，忙碌的日子终于又告一段落。其实总是不断忙碌，都没有时间好好看看自己的生活。静下来，却睡不着。

Have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry?

Have you ever need something so bad you can't sleep at night?

Have you ever try to find the words that they don't come out right?

Have you ever...

Have you ever find someone you can give your heart to? Close the eyes and dream he will come?

Have you ever find someone steal your heart away? You can give anything to make him feel the same?

Why  it always seems no matter how hard I try, I stil can't make something they can understand. Is there something wrong with me, or I stil not get the right one? So many things pass on these days but I still can't focus my attention on it. It is very confused that I don't know what is in my heart.My family?My friends? My career?  Or someone but no one? I may blessing who's in difficulty and forgive who is childish now , but I doubt how manytimes  I can still make it.